It was planned as a time away to visit family and serve orphans. Even as I write this, it almost sounds like a too-good-to-be-true family movie. You can hear the music playing as the deep voiced narrator says,
“They were a family like any other, but this Spring Break they were on an adventure that would change their lives. Because along the way, they would meet a group of orphans and a blind boy with a dog…”
It’s over the top, but this time it was true. Our family was heading to Mexico over spring break to help my little brother and his wife who are serving for three years at the orphanage, Ranchito Con Esperanza. We thought it would be a great way to serve God and see family in a WARM climate. What could be BETTER?!?!?!?
But God had other plans. These plans were also good. They involved a possible birth-mom and baby. But over the past three days, our emotions have been through the wringer as we tried to figure out what God is telling us. So many times in the past few days, I have felt blind to what God was really saying and what my heart wanted. I began asking myself questions from author, Ruth Haley Barton…
- Do I really trust God to do what’s best for me?
- Do I believe in the goodness of God?
- What does God’s love call for in this situation? What would love do?
It’s hard in this situation to know what God’s will for our family this week. Do we go on a missions trip? Do we stay here in case the birth-mom goes into labor?
It’s a hard call.
For us, we realized we had to give up our own desires, egos, gratification, comforts or advantages. We had to give up all of that to seek God’s will on earth as it is in heaven. So we will not go to Mexico. We will stay here.
How will it turn out? I don’t know. I really don’t know…
But I would suggest that all of us as followers of Jesus are called to at least be willing to give up everything to offer our lives to God. When you have a decision to make, ask yourself these questions, talk to other believers you trust and pray hard.
Know that God is good.
Know that he will finish the good work of salvation in you and bring it to completion.
Know He will guide you.
“My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself. And the fact that I think I am following your will does not mean I am actually doing so. But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope I have that desire in everything I am doing.“
-Thomas Merton, Thoughts in Solitude.